Breaking The Silence
As I ponder the love God has for me and the love I have for my family, I wonder, how is it our family finds itself torn asunder time and again? How is it the people who bring tears of joy to our eyes and wipe away our tears of sadness can find themselves on the wrong side of our anger? What happens?
The night I was placed on a team with 5 of my brothers and sisters (Ricky Harrington, Kyle Holcomb, Candace Mitchell, Stefanie Black, and Emily Cargill) I took part in a team prayer. We each prayed for the journey ahead of us. We also each shared our hopes and goals for our team. I said from that moment on we were family. We were brothers and sisters. As brothers and sisters we were going to fight, but we were going to love one another above all else. We had a battle ahead of us.
For the first few months as a team, our relationships were somewhat frosty. We didn’t quite get along. We were six different people with different backgrounds and different opinions. Ricky, Kyle, and I gelled quite well. As did Candace, Stefanie, and Emily. Our struggle manifested itself in the time-honored tradition of a battle of the sexes. We were stubborn and when we argued we found our differences nearly insurmountable. But yet, here I am, well over a year later, with nothing but love in my heart for Ricky, Kyle, Candace, Stefanie, and Emily. How did we manage to stay together as a team and love one another despite bullheadedness and quarrels?
For each of us cutting and running simply was not an option. We were brothers and sisters and we had made the conscious decision to love one another regardless of our differences or shortcomings. We chose to stubbornly love each other. The decision to love is the key to the continued success of our family (I speak broadly of the Christian family as a whole). Unfortunately, we do not always choose to love unconditionally.
Love does not always win over our hearts and minds. When we fail to make decisions with love in our hearts we allow lines to drawn in the sand. On one side of the line we place ourselves and on the other the people with whom we disagree. The longer we fail to allow love to dictate our actions the further we step away from the line and our brothers and sisters on the other side. When love is not in our hearts something else creeps in; Hatred.
Whether we care to admit it we have, each of us, chosen to act on feelings of hate in regard to those we once called brothers and sisters. Eventually hatred fosters an ideology of us-and-them that blinds us from the love we once felt. This newfound mentality makes it not only easy to cut and run, but also makes it seem as though cutting and running is the only option. We forget there is no us-and them. There is only us. We did not forge this family. God did. This is God’s family and he has invited us into it by way of His Son. It is not our place to tear it apart.
Why then? Why do we tear it apart? Because we do not choose to love those whom we have been told to love. We forget the greatest command. We allow our outstanding debt of love to one another to go unpaid. People get hurt and we hurt ourselves. We temporarily seem to pay no heed to the scriptures and what life should have taught us by now; Family is about disagreeing and choosing to stay together.
Time and again I’ve found myself at odds with my Mom, my Dad, or my brother. After 21 years of fighting, however, they are still my Mom, my Dad, and my brother and I am their son and brother and I love them. Our disputes may be inconsequential but generally so are the things that allow us to draw the line in the sand with our brothers and sisters in Christ. Cutting and running simply is not an option.
I know I will not put a stop to church disputes with this one blog. I will personally forget my own words one day, probably sooner then I care to admit, and choose to not a love a brother or sister. It is my profound hope, however, that my words have an impact on those who read them. I pray that my family in Scotland and my family in America will choose to love one another til Kingdom come. It is my profound hope that far above my words, we would choose to heed those of Christ; “I give you a new commandment: That you should love one another. Just as I have loved you, so you too should love one another.” Paul put it well when he wrote, “Keep out of debt and owe no man anything, except to love one another; for he who loves his neighbor [who practices loving others] has fulfilled the Law [relating to one’s fellowmen, meeting all its requirements]”.
I love my family. I love God. If ever I fail to live up to this love I implore any of you to rebuke me long before I have the opportunity to draw a line in the sand. I hope this has been more than the stream of consciousness ramblings of a man whose heart is currently torn between two families and two countries. This is a sentiment that’s been on my mind as of late and I’ve felt compelled to share it with those whom I love.
I love you
Peace
God Bless



